2 Years Old

Our little Monkey is officially 2 years old today!  I can't believe she is 2.  It doesn't really seem like we have had her in our lives for that long.  I know that in the grand scheme of things 2 years is nothing, but it is a lot for us.  Especially considering there was a time where we might not have made it to this point.  Here is a tiny look back at the past two years.

This was taken right after we got to our room when she was born.  I had a c-section so I was not tired in the least!  So happy to see her finally here.

This is Ember with her Great Grandma at almost 2 months.  This is one of the only pictures I have of them together.  By the time Ember was born Grandma was suffering from the horrible effects of Dementia and Alzheimer's.  She may not have remembered much, but she always asked where Ember was when we went to see her.  She loved Ember so much and I am so happy that they got to meet.  Ember is so much like her Great Grandma that it is a little scary.  RIP Grandma.  We love you.

This is two days after Ember's first surgery. She was just 3 1/2 months old.  Looking back, I now know how yellow she really was.  We were in the hospital for a total of 16 days after that first surgery.  This was taken right after feeding her a measly 2 ounces.  It was one of the few times she didn't throw it back up all over me.

This was taken on 11/18/08.  The hardest day of my life so far.  This was in the waiting room just before handing my baby over to a team of surgeons for her liver transplant.  She was still all smiles even though she hadn't eaten anything for awhile.  She went through a surgery that was about 6 1/2 hours.  That day her life was saved due to someones selfless act.  We love and thank her donor angel every day.

This is one of my most favorite pictures of her.  This is the first time she wore her snowsuit.  We were on our way to a clinic visit and it was extremely cold.  I was excited to get her in it.  She was 6 months old here. Only about 20 days after her transplant.

Skipping ahead just slightly, this picture is another one of my favorites.  This is a few days before she turned 1.  She was sitting at the front door just watching the world go by.

Ember at 16 months playing "Soooo Big".  She was also trying to use the box that is right in front of her to stand on so she could reach the tray of her highchair.

This is just a few days after we brought her little sister home. She is so in love with her.  This was at 17 1/2 months.  She still always wants to hold her.  It is too cute.

This is our little Monkey today.  This was taken just a few days ago.  The dress she is wearing is actually a dress that her Great-Grandma made.  She made it for me when I was Ember's age.  I can't believe that she has come so far.  Today she is a normal, happy, healthy toddler.  To look at her you would never know what she has been through.  Well, aside from when she lifts up her shirt and shows off her zombie fighting scar (at least that is what the huz says he is going to tell her when she gets older). 

Happy Birthday my little Monkey.  I love you so very much.  I am so very happy that you chose us to be your family.  You have changed our lives for the better.  We can't imagine life without you in it.

Allergy Testing

Tuesday we took Ember to the allergist for allergy testing. In November she broke out in hives around her mouth after eating something. We had assumed that it was from the meringue off of a pie. So, we made the appointment for March and waited.

When we got to the allergist, we told her what happened and that we suspected an allergy to raw eggs. She said that we could test for household allergies (dogs, cats, dust, etc), seasonal allergens, eggs, and nuts. The testing wasn't at all what I expected. I thought that there were going to do needles with injections just under her skin. Instead they did these little 6 pronged trays and placed them on her back. I think the worst part for Ember, other than just being at a Dr's office, was having to be held down while they applied 4 of the trays to her back. Then we waited for 15 minutes.

After the 15 minutes, the nurse came back in and looked at Embers back, and then measured the places that seemed to be inflamed. The first spot was Histamine. It is basically their control spot to make sure that the test is working. It was a 5X7 red bump on her back. The only other spot that showed up was a 5X5 spot on her back. And it just so happened to be........if you guessed eggs, you are just as wrong as we were......Peanuts! I am SO glad that we decided to do this testing. Ember hasn't had any nuts yet since her transplant nurse mentioned to me that kids aren't supposed to have them until they are 2 now. I had told Matt that once the allergy testing was done, we might try introducing some peanut butter since she is only a few months away from turning 2. (Can you believe it?! My little monkey is going to be 2?!)

Matt was SO disappointed. He was so looking forward to sharing peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with her. I told him that maybe they still could depending on if she grows out of the allergy or not. When we take her to get her normal liver labs done, they are going to draw extra blood for the allergist. She told us that it would give them a number to base how severe her allergy is and then they could track it over time. We are going to have to go back to see then in about 3 months. They gave us some information on reading labels and what she could and couldn't have. They also gave us a prescription for some Epi-Pens. Kind of scary, but I know that we won't have to use them if we just keep an eye on her.

So, for now we wait to see what the results of her blood work is. I also really need to bet my rear in gear and order her a medic alert bracelet now. She technically should already have one, but now it's even more of a necessity.

Liver Families 4th Birthday

The above montage is from a board that I joined right when Ember was diagnosed with Biliary Atresia.  Liver Families has helped me through SO much.  I am so blessed to have such great internet friends as the people on Liver Families.  I am sad that we share the common bong od liver disease, but I am glad that we have a place to share stories.  Please sign up to be an Organ Donor today.

Prayer Reqest..

Ember would like to ask any of you who read her blog or my blog to pray for a friend of ours.  His name is Jax and he is currently on the Liver transplant waiting list.  He is 9 months old and has Biliary Atresia, the same disease Ember was diagnosed with.  Jax is not a candidate for a living donor due to complications with his portal vein.  Please pray that someone says yes to giving him a chance at life. 

It is a bitter sweet prayer, to ask for one child to gain a life due to someone else losing theirs.  Please keep little Jax in your thoughts as well as the families who are saying yes to saving other lives. 

Special little girl...

As the months have passed since Ember has become a big sister I have been wondering several things.  One of which has been whether I was going to love her sister as much as I love her. I do...surprised? Me neither. Another is how I am going to manage to show Ember that she is still a very special little girl.  I have to admit that I have been failing in the second point that I just mentioned.  Ember has become a happy, healthy little toddler and I sometimes forget how extraordinary she is, even if it is just for a moment in time.  I want to stress to her that she is important and that she is oh so special and I have been neglectful of that since her sister has been born.  Let me state right now that I do not believe in playing favorites with your children or grandchildren.  I went through that with one of my sets of grandparents through most of my life and I will not stand for it when it comes to my children.  So it is not a matter of showing favorites for me.  I guess I mean to say that I think that Ember is feeling a little neglected because she doesn't have exclusive mommy and daddy time anymore.  She hardly ever shows it though because she is so in love with her sister.  She always wants to hug, kiss, and love on her.  She is also very good at helping when I need a burp cloth or a blanket.  We are still working on getting her to leave a blanket on her sister when she is in the bouncy seat. 

While Ember is a special little girl becuase of her transplant and her opportunity to change lives through her story, that does not define her.  She is special because of her love, her sense of humor, and her creativity.  She shows unremarkable love towards everyone she meets.  She truly watches people and wants to hug or high five or wave to them.  She LOVES babies and children.  She is so small, yet she has an incredible amount of compassion.  She comforts her sister when she cries.  Admittedly, she has also comforted me when she has caught me crying.  Her sense of humor is like nothing I have ever seen before.  Well, I have...it's her father's sense of humor.  She finds the smallest things funny and has this infectious laugh.  She thinks that the cat is funny even if he is just sleeping.  And, you know what?  He is sometimes. :)  And her creativity is amazing.  She loves to draw, but she also loves to figure things out.  She can figure out how to turn a toy into a stool to sit or stand on in 2.5 seconds flat.  She can also figure out how to fill and dump out any container you could ever imagine in less time than that. 

I can only hope that as she grows she can share her story, become an inspiration to others, and teach her sister how to love, laugh, and live as joyful a life as she seems to have right now.  I hope she can teach her sister that she is also a special little girl.  I hope that I, as her mommy, can teach her that both of my girls are extraordinary in their own way.  Ember is a special little girl, but not because she is defined by her transplant or her disease.  It is because, at the ripe old age of almost 21 months, she has defined her transplant and her disease as part of her life.  She has made herself and her life the story and we are all along for the ride.  I hope that along the way she can teach me how to enjoy the things that she does along with her sister.  Oh, and if she could decide that she would like to be potty trained sometime soon that would be great too, but I am not holding my breath!!! 

I love you my beautiful, special baby girls.  Live long and prosper. Yes, I like Star Trek. Don't judge.

Crazy toddler

Ember has been getting along pretty well since Autumn has arrived. The novelty of having a new baby has not worn off yet. I am waiting for it to happen, but so far so good. She constantly wants to love on and hug Autumn. She even tries to help us burp her whenever she can. Though, sometimes she does try a little too hard!

Aside from getting along with Autumn, she is getting into EVERYTHING! I do mean everything. She is absolutely her father's daughter. She is way to smart for her own good. She is trying to figure out both baby gates that we have. She watches us open and close them and then walks up to them later and tried to push on the buttons. Luckily she isn't strong enough for that yet. She has also been tyring to figure out how to plug the cord back into the swing. Every once in awhile she will get a hold of the cord once we have unplugged it from the swing and the wall (off of mommy or daddy's desk!) and walk up to the swing, with the correct end mind you, and try to plus it back in. It is neat to watch how she figures things out, but it is also not such a good thing.

Right now she has been getting into a lot of trouble for grabbing things off of mommy and daddy's desks. Especially drinks. I can't tell you how many times I have had to change her right before we leave the house because I turn my back for two second and she has dumped a drink down the front of her! I should have learned long before now that I can't turn my back at all!

She also knows exactly where her snacks are in the pantry. She will run right up to the door and knock on it if it is closed. If it is open, she just dives right in and grabs a few snacks then runs away! She is always laughing when she does it. I fail to find the humor in it sometimes. :) Other's I must admit that she is just too stinking cute.

One of her latest laughs is standing in front of the humidifier mist. She stands there and just laughs and laughs. Then she walks about for about 0.2 seconds and runs back to it and laughs some more. It really is cute. She just can't quite figure it out. She is also a big fan of music. Almost any music at all will get her dancing. Especially anything from The Laurie Berkner band. Any time something from them comes on, she drops whatever he is doing and just starts dancing away. It used to just be one big screaming and spinning in a circle fest, but now she is actually getting some moves down. She bends her knees and bounces and swings her arms! Too cute as well! I know that I am bad about leaving the TV on all day for her, but I do it because of all of the music. NickJr is very good about having tons of music videos in between their shows. Most of the shows she actually plays through so I feel that it is a good compromise.

As far as LuLu the Liver is concerned, she is happy. Ember's numbers have all come back great. We are going again next week for another round of labs and hope to hear that they are just as good. She is growing tall and gaining weight as expected which is very good. We are just so blessed to have her as healthy as she is.

I'm the big sister!!!!

On 11/24/09 Ember welcomed her new little sister Autumn Therese into the world. She decided to make her grand debut a little earlier than anyone expected so Ember was a little less than prepared. She thought that she was just going to have a fun day at home with Grandpa and then mommy would return to her. Well, that was not the case. Autumn decided to be too lazy for the Dr's liking so he said she needed to come early. So, Ember did get to spend the day with Grandpa, but mommy nor daddy returned to her. Instead, that afternoon she got to take a ride to the hospital to meet her new baby sister.

We were all worried that the minute she got into the hospital and saw the nurses and dr's she would freak out. She has been having a lot of major anxiety about dr's and dr offices lately. Enough so that she just starts crying at the sight of a white coat or blood pressure cuff. However, she did amazingly well. She was also VERY happy to see her baby sister. She immediately wanted to touch her and love on her. Due to this event she also got to have another first. She spent her first nights away from mommy and daddy. The first two nights she stayed in her own crib with grandparents staying at our house, but the third night she stayed the night at Maw Maw and Paw Paws house. Her first official sleep over!

Since we have been home, Ember has been great with the baby. She has been a little fussy, but it's not really from being jealous. It is because mommy can't pick her up on her own yet. Not sure when I will be able to, but I want to so bad. Now, two weeks out, I can have her put on my lap and I can hold her, but it's not the same as being able to just pick her up whenever she wants/needs to be held. Plus, she has gotten a cold and has been very stuffed up the past few days. She has continued to be VERY loving towards Autumn and loves hugging, patting, and kissing her on the head. It is so sweet.

Today we had a slight meltdown however. Ember wanted to love on Autumn and hold her like mommy was so I told daddy to sit her on the couch. We then let Ember "hold" Autumn. She was beaming and just kept staring at her. We did take some pictures. The meltdown happened when we tried to take Autumn back. Ember yelled at us and held onto Autumn. So, we let her hold her for a little bit longer. Then I tried to take her again and Ember did the same thing. She yelled and tried to pull Autumn closer to her. I explained to Ember that Autumn was not a baby doll and then took her back. Ember threw an all out fit. Crying and yelling and actually laying down on the floor kicking her feet!!!! It was actually pretty different. She has thrown mini tantrums before, but nothing like that!

The rest of the night she was alright with her. She continued to want to try to hold Autumn, but didn't really throw any fits when we said no. I am sure that the novelty will wear off soon and Ember will want us to take her back! hehe For now though, I am enjoying that she is being such a great big sister. I look forward to them growing up together and becoming fast friends. They are both such beautiful little girls and I feel confident that they will be best of friends and love each other no matter what. At least that is what we are going to try to teach them. We are truly blessed to have Ember still with us and now we are doubly blessed to welcome a new little girl into our lives. Hopefully Ember will teach her all of the things that she has taught us the past 18 months and even more as they grow up together. The picks below are Ember meeting Autumn and Ember in her "I'm the big sister shirt". She also got the puppy she is holding as a present.